Porman's Scribbles

why don't you just believe?

2011-05-29T01:21:00.000-07:00

apa semuanya itu harus terlihat mata anda?

apa anda tidak bisa percaya hanya dengan kata-kata saya?

apa anda masih mengira saya hanya bisa bersenang-senang?

tolong, yang saya lakukan di sini adalah kesukaan saya

saya akan berusaha sebaik mungkin supaya berhasil

dan tentu,

anda pasti tidak tahu kan kalau saya suka hal ini?

dan tentu,

anda pasti ragu saya punya kemampuan dalam hal ini?

anda sudah pernah mengatakannya

dan itu berhasil membuat saya nyaris mengeringkan mata saya

saya tidak akan lupa saat mata saya bengkak

yang satu lebih bengkak dari yang lainnya

dan saya pergi ke gereja dengan kondisi seperti itu

saya tidak akan lupa saat anda memberi contoh itu

yang benar-benar membuat saya jatuh

saya butuh dukungan dari anda berdua

saya iri dengan teman saya yang mendapat dukungan demikian

saya letih terlihat senang dan baik-baik saja

saya butuh anda untuk percaya

saya mengerti saya memang amburadul

saya mengerti saya tidak sehebat si dia yang sekarang sangat sukses

saya butuh anda mengerti kondisi saya

saya butuh anda

what are you looking at?

2011-04-24T09:50:00.000-07:00

DON'T JUST LOOK

DON'T JUST STARE

DON'T JUST GLANCE

you gotta face it and say something.

it's so hard to change.

2011-04-24T09:36:00.000-07:00

i just don't get it, how people change that easy. they got into a new area, a new living space, and they suddenly adapt TOO MUCH and they even becoming someone else. they changed THAT easy. i don't understand how people could easily 'synchronize' themselves with new people around them as they like. i do want to change so bad. well, i want to change to be a better girl. i like the way people treat me, i thank them all. but i don't think they actually understand or know the 'me' inside me that they never see before. it's very hard to change to be better. it's so friggin hard to release bad habits, sins, etc. i DO want to change. it's just i haven't found the way to go to the changing process. it's so damn hard. yet, i have to try and try again and again.

i should never get tired of it. i must be better :|

congrats,

2011-04-08T10:47:00.000-07:00

anda cantik dan pintar

anda langsing dan unik

anda menyenangkan dan disukai banyak orang

anda sering menang dalam suatu lomba

anda tertawa lebih banyak daripada saya

congrats, yang saya tahu

dia menyukai anda

muna?

2011-04-06T09:51:00.000-07:00

bilangnya sih bodoamat

padahal sebenernya masih peduli

bilangnya sih 'yaelah orang gue biasa aja'

padahal setiap ngeliat rasanya berbunga-bunga

bilangnya sih 'ish masa gitu banget sih, ngeselin banget',

kesel, dan kelihatan ilfeel

padahal dibalik itu tetep aja masih suka

ini muna atau bukan?

atau mungkin yang gue kira rasa ternyata bukan?

gue bingung dan bahkan ngga ngerti diri gue sendiri

s o r r y

2011-04-05T09:19:00.000-07:00

maaf ya.

it used to be so easy to say

and was said just for formality

but now it's so much more heavier

it goes with the bad and sorry feelings,

regret/ remorse/ repentance,

it's so heavy that i feel like crushed inside each time i say it.

i do know i was wrong. i do need to say this word.

but i also do need some mercy.

we all made mistakes

and we suppose to have another chance to make it right again

or to get some trust again.

please try trusting me again,

even though i know it won't be that easy.

i'm sorry and i hope i could be better from now,

i hope i could learn even more from this,

i hope i could get some supports.

but for now, i really am sorry.

screw the bad english

oke, sejujurnya..

2011-04-03T16:54:00.000-07:00

gue ngarep.

blah.

dodol?

banget.

tapi,

GUE NGGA MAU NGAREP LAGI.

semoga. kalo bisa.

kasitau.

2011-04-02T10:40:00.000-07:00

gue pengen tau
apa aja sih yang ada di otak lo?
apa hanya sebatas ilmu ini itu?
atau info ini itu?

gue penasaran
sebenernya lo sadar kalo gue ada atau engga?
sebenernya gue pernah ngga terlintas di otak lo?
atau mungkin yaah terlintas untuk hal-hal tertentu aja?

gue kepo
lo ngapain aja seharian sampe jarang banget keliatan?
sebanyak apakah prestasi lo sampe kayanya gue ngga sepadan sama lo?
lo itu S.O atau engga?

gue sangat pengen menjelajahi otak lo
dan mencari apakah ada kemungkinan gue ada disana
atau mungkin gue terlalu ngga penting untuk ada di sana?

gue bener-bener pengen tau
gue bener-bener penasaran
dan gue bener-bener kepo

gue ngga mau kaya orang dodol
cengar-cengir berasa dinotice sama orang kaya lo
padahal (jangan-jangan) engga

kasitau gue ya?
mau ngga?

wtf deh yo......

PALE

2011-03-29T08:30:00.000-07:00

it better be useful
it better be worth it
it better be beneficial
it better be versatile
it better be efficient
it better be a happy bringer

but then it's not,

and i'm pale for nothing.

RuRu Exhibition; Decompression #10

2011-01-12T06:14:00.000-08:00

an exhibition created by the RuRu (Ruang Rupa) organization.

(Actually i was attending the Ruru exhibition on January 10th.)

I was there with Ishma and Karla. The other have gone there like days before so it's only the three of us that day. It's VERY interesting and totally inspiring. I was all like "wow, this is cool" "Wow, how could he/she tought about it??" and other surprised reactions. The products are stunning and it made us think a lot. We were not only saying about how great the product was but also what does the artist want to say through his/her artworks, why he/she made the artworks like that, how did they made it, etc. it really makes us think and by that I was really getting some kind of knowledge I guess.
AND it was, somehow, very comfy there and we enjoyed it very much to stay there for hours to see the artworks. Here are some of the artworks:

i don't know what the title is.

it's envelopes from people in 2010 to his/her future self in 2020. containing things, anything they want.

behind me are pictures of people wearing fake fangs. i don't really remember the title, it's some kind like: we're all vampires.

it's like unique products. don't really know how to explain it sorry -__-

yes there are a lot lot lot more than that but i can only post them or it will be too much. there are great artoworks that wowed me so bad that i'm not able to took any picture of that artwork -__-

We've seen this video in the different building, where we couldn't bring cameras in only that room so i couldn't take picts or record anything, and we saw this video Titled: "CONTROL" but honestly i forgot who the artist was. It was so damn funny watching that video. It's not just normal video, like videos that we used to watch where there's no interaction between the video and the watcher. This video makes us able to control this man in the video to do whatever we want (well, the options are there and we could choose what we want the man to do), it's like we're controlling him. I think it's VERY brilliant. We were all laughing but it sure is very clever to make such video like that. Never seen it before.

Overall it was very inspiring. Too bad i couldn't attend any seminar or film screening, i think it would be fun though :)

wait, what??

2011-01-10T19:09:00.000-08:00

The last time i post something is on JUNE 2010???

it's already 2011!!!! oh kay that's bad.

ok so this is my 1st post in 2011 and i'll try to post.. more :)

back from Germany :)

2010-06-21T03:55:00.000-07:00

well actually i was back since like 20 days ago.
i'll post some pics later kay? *males nge-blog abis.

Germany?

2010-05-08T09:38:00.000-07:00

yoi, tahun ini (bulan Mei) PSAI bakal pergi ke Jerman buat Musica Sacra. Karna gue juga termasuk anak PSAI ya gue ikutan deh.
Kami bakal di Jerman kira-kira 2,5 minggu lah, tapi dipadati sama konser yang bejibun dan gue khawatir ga bisa jalan atopun blanja dengan cukup puas, tapi let's see lah ya.
i'm so hyper about this soalnya gue juga bisa dibilang udah ga perlu khawatir ttg univ. lagi, sudah tenang.
so that's it, enough explaining, let's just wait what'll happen there :)

pengumuman-pengumuman.

2010-05-08T09:25:00.002-07:00

after those tears-drying and stuff here's what i got:

ARSITEKTUR - UNIV. DIPONEGORO, Semarang
ARSITEKTUR INTERIOR - UNIV. INDONESIA, Jakarta

i didn't make it to UGM, but those things up there are BLESSINGS!! I really really really thank God that i've given the opportunity and i'll try my best not to mess it up.
i was sooooo shocked with the announcemet, yet VERY happy that i can't stop smiling so wide when somebody congrats me :)

gue di sini bukannya mau sombong, tapi hanya bangga.

oh and of course gue sudah lulus dari SMAN 28, and it's official karna gue sudah wisuda juga hari ini :)

Sooooo gue ga perlu cemas lagi selama gue ke Jerman. 'lo mau ke jerman yo?' oh sorry did i forgot to tell you abt it? well see the other post then, kay? thanks :D

please calm yourself down.

2010-03-28T00:54:00.000-07:00

"so I don't know anything? yea thanks a lot. so all those brochure, tution fees, e-mails , and google searching means nothing?? hah. please. you don't even know what i've been through, well maybe you do know, but you just have NO idea what it feels like.

i'm probably jut gonna say, i'm kinda different if you compare me with you. i love arts even though you think i'm not that talented or anything. i don't wanna be boxed in by the so-called-reality. you see, if people in the world were always think 'we can't do that, it's just impossible for us' then we can't be lightened by lamps and all."

"I'm tired of people thinking that i haven't give enough efforts."

Cobra Starship for UAN 2010

2010-03-22T07:15:00.000-07:00

guys, you make me (and other cobra's fans) loves you even more. it means A LOT *tears*.

even though it's not the whole band talking there in the video, it still touch our hearts :')

(klick the pictures; i can't find all the pics of the band members, so sorry.)

credits: flickr members.

THE ANNOYING ORANGE

2010-03-11T23:03:00.000-08:00

100% annoying, 100% juicy, 100% fruit.

100% ANNOYING ORANGE

watch it! now! i'm too addicted that i'm posting it here.

enjoy.

youtube: realannoyingorange

the WAR.

2010-03-11T22:10:00.000-08:00

yes. the war. it'll start in no time.
those UAN, UAS, Ujian Praktek, SIMAK, etc are just driving me insane. well, let's just say drive almost every year 12 kids insane.

it'll start March 22th and (hopefully) will end in like, April 20's. if you're asking, 'so this is why you're posting something in blogspot after months?' i'll say, oo yea. and why oh why i could do this in the middle of the whole preparation for those tests? because i'm just so tired and i just want to breathe. even in my rest time everyone are keep telling me to study. i mean, hello? can't you see any smoke up on my head? meaning i'm so darn tired???

anyway, i'll stop those meanless blabber. i actually wanna say something to you guys who, well, just 'play too much' in high school. i'm not asking you to stop and be a geek or even date those text books, i'm just saying please at least pay more attention in school than i ever done. i just realized, after these 3 years in high school, i don't even feel like i've studied that much. well, i DO study. something. some stuffs. when it's time for me to face the war i was all depressed and terrified. because i've never been this scared of the tests, afraid of failing. when i'm in the junior high, i know i studied lots of stuff. and paid moooore attention on what are teached there. that's why i don't even took any bimbel when i was going to face UAN in junior high. and for the admission test of Tarakanita 1 (which i passed but i didn't take it because i'm kinda bored with the same atmosphere (i was a student in the SD Tarakanita 2, SMP Tarakanita 1) and willing to try other things. and here am i a SMAN 28 public high school student.)

so as what i said above, please just try a bit serious and maybe be more diligent. that's all.
enough talking, i'm outta here. (no i'm not going to study or something, i just wanna google things). kay, thanks, bye :]

Diana F+

2009-11-17T08:16:00.000-08:00

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the future: college

2009-11-07T01:33:00.000-08:00

12th grade.

pshh really, ini namanya udah bikin dagdigdug banget deh. gue yang tadinya bercita-cita pengen jadi dokter, dan blablabla skarang beranjak pengen jadi ahli gizi, masuk fkm, atau masuk kuliah desain.
gue sampe skarang masih nunggu hasil psikotest. apakah pa yang gue mau sesuai dengan bakat gue? we'll see.

anyway, semua orang di sekolah udah pada berubah, yang tadinya selalu heboh setiap saat, dimana aja, sekarang jadi serius belajar terus menerus tiap ada waktu senggang (istirahat, pelajaran kosong, pelajaran yang bikin ngantuk, pelajaran dimana gurunya ga jelas lagi ngajar apa), bahkan ada yang tiap masuk sekolah kalo gue liat-liat, mukanya pasti lemes2 gimana gitu kaya semaleman habis dibantai sama soal2 super.
ditambah lagi, skarang yang namanya buku sakti, buku ringkasan, studying abroad, dll slalu ada di tas. gue suka jadi pusing merhatiin orang-orang di sekitar gue. iya sih emang sekarang udah bener2 waktunya, tapi kok seseriusnya gue kenapa belom bisa se-super maksimum kaya mereka2 ya? that make me think alot. dan gue sangat bingung gimana mereka bisa survive ngerjain soal-soal super duper banyak terus menerus, sementara gue aja konsen belajar math:matriks seminggu penuh lama2 enek sendiri.
oh ya ada lagi, zenius, expedia. itu tuh, modul buat belajar, yes, yang harganya selangit itu. gue udah pernah nyobain demo nya sih di internet, emang lumayan enak, tapi yaudah, itu menurut gue kaya ngedatengin guru privat lagi ke rumah.

dan oh dan waktu gue berinternetan malah bertambah banyak karena gatau kenapa gue merasa gue udah puyeng banget tiap pulang sekolah.
hhh.. is it just me or everyone feels the same.

webcamming.

2009-09-28T23:25:00.000-07:00

it's almost the end of school holiday and i totally have no idea what to do at home alone and i'm on a diet so i can't just eat whatever i want. sooo, these pictures are the results of my boredom:

i don't know why i ever liked him.

2009-09-26T05:54:00.000-07:00

it's so hard to explain now really, idk where to start and i'm tired to talk about it. so, jut let me spill it all out with some sentences. i'm sorry for the wrong spelling, wrong tenses, etc. kay? my english isn't that good.

gah. it's too small and if i resize it, it got pixelated.

anyway that's all. and i still don't know why can i still like him. well, a bit.

ay guys.

2009-09-25T09:00:00.000-07:00

so you see, i haven't post anything since months ago and i just wanna say that actually i', kinda tired of writing blogs you know. there's twitter and like whatever i wanna say i just post it there and voila people are responding. this blog is kinda boring, but i won't stop blogging either.

sooooo the thing is, let's share thoughts with twitter!! :D mine is: yohanaaloha. you know that's my screen name wherever i have an account so don't bug thinking what's my name, it must be yohanaaloha or anaha (a name i like lately). google yohanaaloha and the only thing you'll find is me.
thanks.
ps: how to read 'anaha': (e[as in cafe]-nuh-huh)

-yohanaaloha. let's tweet!

Placement test BTA 45 (hari I)

2009-07-24T21:48:00.000-07:00

anda benar. gue ikut bta 45 yg di tebet itu tuh.. dengan bermodalkan belajar matematika seadanya dan bahasa indonesia + biologi ga belajar sama sekali, gue berjalan dengan santainya ke gedung bta 45.
Gue ketemu Ayu dan Astri tarsat!!! OH EM JI! Gue shock parah yaa, mereka skarang anak pulor. ayu ips, astri ipa. di tengah-tengah kekagetan gue dan senengnya, ternyata gue salah masuk gedung (jgerr). ternyata itu gedung buat anak ips. duhh, jadi gue harus jalan lagi ke gedung yg lain. gue dapet ruang Bass di sana.

Waktu baru mau masuk, eh ketemu wildan (anak 28). trus gue nyerahin foto-copy rapot + foto yg waktu itu belom gue kasih waktu pendaftaran, trus duduk nungguin. sejauh ini yg gue tau ikutan bta 45 cuma cica, jadi gue sibuk nelfonin orang buat nanyain nomernya cica, tapi ga berhasil. Tiba-tiba gue liat dhanes dan beberapa anak 28 lain.
Waktu di kelas gue tambah shock liat ada nadira masuk kelas gue dan disusul oleh ilham. dan itu membuat gue ga konsen ngerjain soal mat+bio yang susah itu dengan pensil mekanik pinjeman (cacat banget ga sih, baru masuk udah langsung minjem-minjem. gue minjem sama anak pulor gitu temennya astri, tapi gue blom tau namanya). Pas istirahat, gue turun, dan melihat BANYAK anak 28. woow, serrius loo? rame bo' -___-"

Bgitu selese ngerjain soal bahasa di sesi ke-2, gue langsung mau pulang, sebenernya sih nemenin brilli ngambil baju di mobilnya, tapi ternyata gue juga udah dijemput, jadunya gue langsung cabut dari sana.

things i noticed from that test:
1. Udah berasa kaya reuni! Gue sih cuma ketemu 2 orang temen smp, tapi anak2 lain banyak yg saling ketemu gitu. si nadira bahkan ketemu sama temen sd nya. ckckck. banyak benget kata2: "x??" "Y??" "yaampuuuun! lo dimana skarang??" etc.

2. Selalu cek alat-alat tulis lo sebelum test dimulai, jadi lo sempet minjem kalo ternyata ada yg ketinggalan :P (sisi - : kemungkinan orang bakal mikir: apa deh nih orang, baru test pertama aja udah ga niat. sisi+ : dengan minjem itu bisa membantu lo menambah teman . sekalian aja basa-basi nanya dia anak mana, kalo ternyata lo punya temen yg satu skolah sama dia, tanyain apa dia kenal temen lo ato ngga, etc.)

3. Mempersiapkan diri lo dengan belajar materi yang bakal diujiin itu berguna lho, jadi lo gausah merasa begi banget gara2 ga bisa ngerjain soal-soal ato lupa rumus, dll.

with momma

2009-07-18T06:05:00.000-07:00

hari ini, hari sabtu diawali dengan penyusunan hal-hal yg perlu gue lakukan hari ini. trus gue mandi kelamaan, jadi ga bisa pergi nebeng bokap untuk melakukan hal-hal itu. akhirnya gue pergi sama nyokap naik taxi (tadinya mau naik bus, tapi gue males, soalnya baju gue: baju barong biru, black shorts, black stockings, black high heels; jadi bayangkan gue naik bus pake high heels).

First Stop: Fujifilm deket rumah, di jl. poltangan. Gue nyetak foto gue (yg mnurut gue cukup abal) buat foto di surat sidi (soalnya besok gue sidi!! :D).

2nd: HKBP Pasar Minggu; Poltangan: Ngasih foto yg tadi baru dicetak sama uang sukarela gitu deh, turun bareng mama dan di sana lagi ada semacem seminar/penyuluhan gitu buat ibu2.

3rd: Pulau Dua Restaurant: Rencananya, sidi gue besok bakal dirayain di sana, tanpa adat dengan mengundang lebih sedikit orang, karena gamau ribet-ribet banget. wiihh, i was terpukau liatnya dan kepengen bikin sweet 17; tapi bgitu liat harga makanannya jadi ngeri sendiri. Mama mesenin saung Lombok, biar agak kepisah, soalnya besok bakal ada ibadah kecilnya gitu, jadi kan ga enak kalo tiba- tiba ada orang lain.

4th: Plaza Senayan: Awalnya sih ga berencana ke sini, tapi mama juga mau sekalian nyari aksesoris buat besok, dll. Akhirnya di sana beli kalung buat mama, bangles silver buat gue, stocking warna kulit, dan bando item (supaya gue punya bando sendiri dan ga minjem punya orang lagi). Abis beli itu semua kaki gue mulai pegel. Trus gue minta langsung minum aja, biar gue bisa sekalian mengistirahatkan kaki gue. Tadinya mau ke starbucks, tapi ga jadi, mau ke j.co, tapi gatau di sana ada ato ga dan dimana, trus mama mencetuskan ide buat ke Haagen-Dasz. Yowess kami langsung tancap ke depan sogo, tapi ternyata dia sudah tidak ada di sana lagi!! Mama berinisiatif nanya ke satpam sogo dan satpamnya bilang ada di bawah, di food court; gue agak bingung, masa iya ada di sana dan nyokap udah merasa ga mungkin, tapi gara-gara kaki gue terus menjerit gue mengajak mama buat langsung aja coba liat ke bawah (food court). Nyampe bawah, nyokap nanya sama mbak-mbak gitu, eh ternyata haagen-dasz nya yg di kulkas itu loh, bukan counternya. jeng-jeng. gue sangat bete dan melas. kaki gue serasa mau meledak. Karena di sana ada breadtalk, mama sekalian beli beberapa roti dulu, baru akhirnya balik naik lagi ke lantai 1 sesuai info mbak-mbak tadi. Trus ke luar sogo, nyari-nyari. dan BAM! Dapet. Dia ada di sebelahnya Coffe Bean, deket pintu waktu gue sama nyokap baru masuk tadi. Gue bahagia banget nemu itu tempat. Waktu duduk di kursi, gue langsung buka sepatu, udah ga peduli deh apa kata waiter nya, mumpung lagi ga ada pengunjung juga selain gue dan nyokap, gue santai aja. Gue mesen Brownie Explosion, mama mesen minuman gitu, kaya hot chocolate gt, gue lupa namanya. semuanya enak paraaaah. Selesai ngabisin punya gue dan minta minum mama, gue enek juga dan untungnya udah disediain air putih, jadi gue langsung minum dan merasakan betapa kenyangnya gue. Waktu mau bayar diajakin bikin kartu gitu, jadi bisa dapet diskon Haagen-Dasz 25% sama Hard Rock Cafe 20%. Tapi sayangnya hp gue dan mama lowbatt dan mati (perlu sms dulu buat registrasi), jadi lewat beberapa trik-trik si mbak nya, kamiu pun terbantu (udah gitu tadi diskonnya udah sekalian dimasukin, jadinya asik :]). Kaki gue udah membaik, dan gue sama nyokap keluar dari PS.

5th: Rumah: ISTIRAHAAAAT. cape PARAH. gue langsung melempar badan gue ke tempat tidur.

THAT WAS FUN ! ! ! ! !

Test Lisan Katekisasi

2009-07-11T09:21:00.000-07:00

setelah cukup tenang gara2 udah ngafalin kitab2 di perjanjian lama pake lagu yang gue bikin sendiri dan ngafalin bahan2 dari kisi2 yang pernah gue dapet, gue bisa tidur tenang tanggal ... malam. keesokan harinya (waktu udah mau pergi ke Gereja), gue nelfon Ully nanya2 tentang kisi2 yg belom gue tau jawabannya. daaaaan. JENG JENG ternyata ada kisi2 tambahan yang dikasih waktu gue ga masuk katek!! and i was like "HAAAHH??? BOHONG LOOO!"; and no, she wasn't. then, gue buru2 nyatet beberapa hal yg tadi Ully sebutin dan gue langsung melancong ke Gereja naik ojek. Nyampe sana gue terselamatkan sama catetan Agnes (thanks a bunchy bunch yee) soalnya dia udah ngejawab kisi2 nya dan gue tinggal ngafalin dan ngertiin.

gue berpusing-pusing ria cukup lama sampe akhirnya gue capek sendiri dan udah hampir jam 3 (waktu test bakal mulai) gue panik (as usual, duh..). Gue udah dag dig dug parah sampe akhirnya amang Pdt. K. Purba memanggil kami2 buat masuk ke Gereja.

Gue trus aja ngafalin dikit2 sambil nunggu nama gue dipanggil. oh, yg bikin gue tambah takut adalah: pake mic. maaaan! betapa mengerikannya, tapi ternyata mic. nya ga gitu berfungsi (yg buat penjawab; yg buat Pendetanya nanya berfungsi dengan sangat baik) so i was kinda santai.

Menunggu menunggu dan menunggu. udah 2 jam lebih kali gue nungguin mulu, nama gue ga dipanggil2 dan gue udah berfirasat gue bakal dipanggil paling akhir dan takut. ternyata nggak; well, emang agak2 terakhir sih, tapi bukan terakhir :P

ini yg terjadi:
Pdt: "Kau rupanya belum bisa mengucapkan hata haporseaon dengan benar ya?"
Gue: "Iya amang, waktu itu."
Pdt: "Waktu itu?"
Gue: "Iya, waktu itu."
Pdt: "Berarti sekarang sudah bisa?"
Gue: "Sudah amang."
Pdt: "Yang benar?"
Gue: "Iya amang."
Pdt: "Kalau begitu, cobalah"
Gue: [Ahu Porsea]/[Aku Percaya]
Pdt: "Ya. Tadi kawanmu bilang, kepanjangannya HKBP itu: Huria Kristen Batak Protestan. Kapan lahirnya HKBP?"
Gue: "7 Oktober.... 18.. hm, 7 Oktober 1861"
Pdt: "Ya. Nomensen itu sebagai apa?" (gue lupa exact kalimatnya)
Gue: "ng.. Sebagai Ephorus pertama, amang."
Pdt: "Hm, sudah ada berapa Ephorus dari dulu hingga sekarang?"
Gue: [terdiam, tanpa suara]
Pdt: "Dang ho boto do ho?" ->nggak tau kan kau?
Gue: "hehe, iya amang."
Pdt: (ngeberesin sesuatu) "Sapuluh tolu"
Gue: "oh, iya amang"
Pdt: "Ya, sudah"
Gue: "Udah amang?"
Pdt: "Iya, sudah boleh kembali kau."
Gue: "Oke, makasih amang."

Yay! Gue berhasil!! (mnurut gue). walaupun nilai tertulis gue 6,2 (ato ga 5,2; ga jelas tulisannya). tapi gue cukup bisa menjawab pertanyaan :D kecuali pertanyaan terakhir. Gue akhirnya tenang.

Tiba2 ada salah satu anak katek yg belom hafal Ahu Porsea dan disuruh ngafalin tapi akhirnya ngafalin lamaa banget. Amang Siahaan keliatan lumayan marah sama kami, soalnya berisik tapi ga bisa jawab pertanyaan, bahkan Ahu Porsea aja ada yg belom hafal.
Amang akhirnya nanya sama anak2 katek dan ortu: ini seperti menganggap remeh ini. coba, apa seperti ini pantas untuk malua? Apa mau diulang 1 tahun lagi? (kira2 itu poin yg diomongin) dan nanya pendapat ortu dan anak katek. Salah satu ortu ada yg menyarankan buat ditambahin satu bulan lagi. Ada yg bilang apaa gitu, gue ga gitu ngerti. Trus dari anak katek (Doglas) minta maaf gara2 kami pada ga serius, dll dan jangan diulang lagi kateknya. Akhirnya amang Purba dateng dan bilang yg intinya: ya, tidak perlu diulang lagi, tapi yg penting, besok, dan jumat-sabtu minggu depan SEMUA harus datang, tidak boleh absen kalau tidak, dianggap tidak lulus, kecuali yg benar2 sakit. SEMUA tidak boleh terlambat, supaya bisa selesai tepat waktu juga.

Betapa lega gue ga perlu mengulang katek lagi, i mean, gue kelas 3! bakal rebek banget nantinya!

Walaupun ga blajar lagi, ada satu pesan yg perlu gue dan temen2 katek gue inget: Udah malua bukan berarti udah selesai, tamat. tapi kita harus terus belajar, nggak stop sampe di sini aja.

that's all, this is one important day :]

FINALLY i found this song.

2009-07-03T11:07:00.000-07:00

i saw the video first and it just caught me and i fell in love with this song. then i heard this song was played in a radio and i was like "aaah, what's the titleee??" and i casually google a bit of its lyrics: should i give up. then i FOUND it!! then i found the video in youtube too and yay i'm posting it here. enjoyy :]]]

Adele-Chasing Pavements

"Chasing Pavements"
I've made up my mind,
Don't need to think it over
If I'm wrong, I am right
Don't need to look no further,
This ain't lust
I know this is love
But, if I tell the world
I'll never say enough
Cos it was not said to you
And that's exactly what I need to do
If I end up with you

[Chorus]
Should I give up,
Or should I just keep chasin' pavements?
Even if it leads nowhere
Or would it be a waste
Even if I knew my place
Should I leave it there
Should I give up,
Or should I just keep chasin' pavements
Even if it leads nowhere

I build myself up
And fly around in circles
Watin' as my heart drops
And my back begins to tingle
Finally, could this be it

[Chorus]

lyrics: azlyrics.com

last retreat

2009-07-03T10:42:00.000-07:00

well yea it was great of course and tiring. Astri had post some photos of me and i just wanna share my favorite one:

ignore my face; i know i look totally retarded. but i love the whole look of the pict. you know, the grass thingy. i think it look nice.

Megan Fox was actually a man???

2009-07-02T09:28:00.000-07:00

(credit: megansafox.com)

i read about it from some web and i heard about it from radio and i was shocked. A LOT. i mean, she's hot (yes, she is) and i never suspect her as a man beforeee! (and i was straightly think what would Shia Lebouf do when he know he was kissing a transsex?).

i'm okay about Gaga because she was born with 2 genitals she has nothing to do with it; but transsex? i mean, hello, God has a good plan for you to be a man and you ruin it by surgery? i don't think so Megaaan, or should i say, Mitchell. anyway, it had been done and i'm not even have any connection with her, so i won't judge her any further.

see the articles about it:
here and here; and here for indonesian (the translation of the 1st article).

she's a hermaphrodite.

2009-07-01T21:54:00.000-07:00

(credit: ladygaga.com)

i'm okay with that. i just wanna give proof to people who just doesn't trust me.
she, i mean Lady Gaga. yes, that quirky girl with her unique style.

you can see the proof here.
actually i dig her, but some of her songs just kinda boring.i don't care if she's a hermaphrodite. i like her style and her make ups. she's cool. enough saying.

whoa

2009-06-29T10:17:00.000-07:00

i found her on LOOKLET.COM and i saw her multiply and i loooove her works.
these are my favorite:

my new web drugs:

2009-06-28T08:07:00.001-07:00

nazooooooooooong, i played it on facebook and myspace. it's kinda fun and killed my boredom, yet wasting my time -____-
anyway if any of you have an account of it, please invite me to your house? :D it would be verrrrry nice.
my username is yohanaaloha in both accounts.

Like everyday there must be something i wanna write but, you know, i was too lazy to write 'em
own. why? those ideas just kept popping and made me confused about what should i write first. that's why so far i only post something that really worth-to-write things.

yes. twitter. that website with a bird as the icon. it's so simple and i could write whatever i want anytime. and it helps a lot for me to stalk famous people (hahaha). really. it's so fun to know where are your favorite artists were.

i la la la la la la love yaaa!

2009-06-21T21:13:00.000-07:00

even loads of people hates you
and say how gay you are (well, i kinda agree sometimes)

you're still cute Chris

just blew my mind O.O

2009-06-21T20:42:00.000-07:00

and all i said was.. "oh damn" "najong keren banget" "apa-apaan tuh"
*standing ovation*

you're loved.

2009-06-20T20:49:00.000-07:00

and if not yet, don't be afraid.

when oh wheeeeeen??

2009-06-20T06:25:00.000-07:00

I've learnt to play this Bella's Lullaby song (twilight's OST) for a month and i still can't play it right! rrrrrrrrrr...

LOL

2009-06-20T00:27:00.000-07:00

"tak gendong, kemana-mana. tak gendong, kemana-mana. enak dong, mantep dong.."

are you efffing sureeeeee????

looklet.com

2009-06-14T22:05:00.000-07:00

check out my page

Pameran Komputer; JCC

2009-06-13T05:36:00.000-07:00

Today, my Father, my Brother, and I went to JCC to see that computer exhibition in JCC (Jakarta Convention Center) at Gelora Bung Karno, Senayan. Bedore that we went to the dentist (my dad's teeth was hurt so he took some medicine or something). It was hot outside, so i stayed in the car, sleeping. idk how could i be sleepy, i woke up at 11! -_-

The traffic jam was kinda tiring. and i'm hungry. we decided to went to lapo (a batak restaurant) first and wait (maybe the traffic jam will decrease). after we're full we straightly went to jcc. yep, the traffic was decreasing. although, we knew there'll be no parking space, so we park around the stadium (where had soooo much spaces) and walked to the jcc.

(in jcc) dang, it's so damn crowded! it's like we were queueing aaaalll the time! so here's the queue experience i had:

- i found a guy i named: SILVER GUY. he's actually worked for hp to advertised things. his face and hair was glittered silver. i was like 'hahaa, that's cute'. oh, he wore a sunglasses anyway. minutes later i found him with this cute latin-look kid and i think this kid like him so much. he was giggling like what and that was quite refreshed me.

- i saw a clown (wait, it's not clown. he/she wear some kind of costume to advertise things. got it?) that actually dance. that's funny. really. i mean it.

- i found a woman talked to her husband "it was you who wanna come here, i just come 'cause you wante to.. i don't understand things in here" (indonesia: yaa, aku nggak ngerti, kan tadi kamu yg mau kesini, yaudah ikut aja.) while her husband was asking about a computer to her. i found her in the middle of the crowd so it's kinda filled my boring time.

- loads of people gave us brochures. so when i was tired of it i just keep saying 'no, thanks'.

- actually, the only thing i remembered that i done there was walking, walking, walking, and walking. there was i time when my brother and i wanna see a brochure that was on the top of the stands so i stopped a while. suddenly there was a woman saying "please go walk, there's a traffic jam" (indonesia: tolong jalan dong, macet di depan). and i was like, what? what if i don't wanna? i wanna see the brochure! duh, that was weird and we just moved a bit (we didn't wanna walk), we still wanna see the brochure.

- i finally knew what i wanna buy. i bought an usb (kingston data traveler, 2GB) 'cause i lost mine. my brother bought the 4GB.

- what we're looking for there was abstract -_-. well yea, we looked for an external hard drive for my brother. and my father was browsing the prices of pc and notebooks.

- i found a.. (ergh, i forgot the name). which used to draw things. so it's kinda has that touch screen, so when we could drew like we drew with pencil on a paper. the difference is it's directly connected to the computer (adobe photoshop and it kinds). i found it realllly fun i wanna bought it, but when i saw the price it's expensive D':

and guess what, that short trip cost us 2 hours and tired feet. it's so fresh when i got outta the building (even it's still hot outside. and crowd.). we bought 2 cold mineral waters. and i knew i was tricked. the 1st place i bought the mineral water it was Rp 4.000. and the next place was only Rp 3.000! rrrrrr..
okay, from that place, we walked to the park lot we had around the stadium and guess what, now it's full O_O. wow. then we went home. blablablaa.. i slept and suddenly i'm home :]

i'm sad i didn't bring any camera, so i couldn't capture any funny things. i'll post some pictures when i found 'em :]]

:]

2009-06-12T10:00:00.000-07:00

"When The Day Met The Night" (Panic! At The Disco)

When the moon fell in love with the sun
All was golden in the sky
All was golden when the day met the night

When the sun found the moon
She was drinking tea in a garden
Under the green umbrella trees
In the middle of summer

When the moon found the sun
He looked like he was barely hanging on
But her eyes saved his life
In the middle of summer (summer)

In the middle of summer
All was golden in the sky
All was golden when the day met the night
Summer (summer)
All was golden in the sky
All was golden when the day met the night
Summer, summer, summer, summer
All was golden when the day met the night

So he said, "Would it be all right
If we just sat and talked for a little while
If in exchange for your time
I give you this smile?"

So she said, "That's okay
As long as you can make a promise
Not to break my little heart
Or leave me all alone in the summer."

Well he was just hanging around
Then he fell in love
And he didn't know how
But he couldn't get out
Just hanging around
Then he fell in love

In the middle of summer
All was golden in the sky
All was golden when the day met the night
Summer
All was golden in the sky
All was golden when the day met the night
Summer, summer, summer, summer
When the moon fell in love with the sun
All was golden in the sky
All was golden when the day met the night

Summer, summer, summer, summer
In the middle of summer,summer,summer, summer
the middle of summer, summer, summer, summer
the middle of summer, summer, summer, summer
In the middle of..

Confession;

2009-06-12T09:28:00.000-07:00

you might think this is weird or what or scary maybe, but whatever. i just wanna write what really happened to me kay? it, don't read it. doesn't matter.

i noticed that i've been agak jauh dari Tuhan recently. ga sate, lupa doa malem, ga doa pagi, dll. i even do my biggest sin. and days later, things happened.

-i got a problem with someone that make me wanna torture him. i don't know what the problem, but this someone just trying to explode me i think. that raised my temperature to the highestttt! believe me. my head was so hot and i can't control my hand scratching my own (other) hand.
-i was failed with this thing (ada deeh)
-i couldn't done my katekisasi test well

those are what i remember. i think there are more than that.
but the point is, i'll try to change myself (again) and i wanna be a better person. Gue harus bertobat dengan serius.

polyvore. recent sets.

2009-06-10T00:26:00.000-07:00

-remember. be different-

this is F U N N Y

2009-06-04T02:37:00.000-07:00

my recent wish list - June 3, 2009

2009-06-02T20:18:00.000-07:00

harem pants, knee-high socks, black blazer.

1st look on lookbook.........

2009-06-02T10:00:00.000-07:00

that no one hyped; how pathetic
whatever, i WILL post some rad one. just wait.

June 2 // mhmmm.. (late)

2009-06-02T09:31:00.000-07:00

Today is so friggin.. i don't know. why? let's see:

Today my friends and i were gone shooting for a cinematography project. i was there on time 10.30 at 28. we gathered at about 11 but we still waited for Suryo. we've waited for like 3 hours (idk) and those guys were kinda fed up and decided to left Suryo behind and suddenly Mala showed up and yea we're gone with Mala.

first, we went to plaza indonesia ,where we looked kinda stupid, walked like have no destination, looked for a restaurant called "miitem" and after we found it we can't shoot a thing there because they want a proposal and we don't have one. so we decided to go outta the plaza and continue the journey. oh and there we just find that Suryo doesn't even wanna come, so our precious 3 hours was wasted.

THEN, we went to Ragusa in Jalan Veteran in the area of kota. They sold fantastic ice cream there. They're expensive but i thought it just paid off 'cause it taste sooo gooood. i bought one (the cheap one) that called "coupe de ... (the ... means i forgot the name) it's a mix of Vanilla and Nougat. dang i wanted more. aaand what we're shooting was the spaghetti ice cream (it look just like a spaghetti. not an ice cream on a spaghetti)

1. The Ragusa, italian ice cream 2. The Spaghetti Ice Cream
3. Astri and I 4.My silly face and the nougat-vanilla ice cream

AFTER THAT, we went to Istiqlal Mosque. Astri and I took some pictures there and we were waiting outside 'cause we don't sholat. Astri said people were staring at me and i know why (it's what i wear. i wear shorts and stockings). Astri and I play that ayunan 'cause we're boredddd and she was starving.

in front of the mosque.

FROM THAT PLACE, we went to the train station to had lunch at hoka-hoka bento. we didn't know where we could eat and we're so starving, so that's one perfect choice.

actually, we were planning to continue the shooting to nasi bakar at Lenteng Agung, but our feet couldn't take much walk anymore, so we decided to go home and continue it someday.

it's quite tiring, but still fun :]

LIBUR UAN & lookbook

2009-04-25T10:30:00.000-07:00

i've planned all the things but it just doesn't really work out :[
rencana gue:
senin: poncol (done)
selasa: survey (done)
rabu: pasar baru (X)
kamis: jalan-jalan ipa4 (done)
jumat: reuni tardu (X)
sabtu: paskah naposo-remaja HKBP (X)
minggu: kidzania bareng ipa4 (impossible|X)

emang sih beberapa berjalan dengan baik, tapi tetep aja kurang puas. ditambah dengan gue harus ngerjain tugas-tugas yang mulai menumpuk dan ga pernah kelar-kelar gue kerjain *sigh*. udah gitu bokap nyuruh nyicil blajar. pengen sih, udah mulai buka buku, tapi tetep aja ngga konsen, ngga fokus. alhasil gue belajar seadanya -_-"
hari ini harusnya gue dateng ke paskah remaja di Gereja, tapi akhirnya nggak dan gue sangat takut ketemu si ully marully lagi (takut dijambak-jambak, disiksa,dll *lebay*) karna sebenernya dia mnyuruh gue buat mensupport dia (only ully understand what i mean by that).

oh, and i waste like loaaads of money liburan ini, padahal cuma brapa kali jalan! smua brasal dari salah pilih makanan, salah transport, blaa blaa blaaa.. dang.

BUT, i got this good news for moi. heres the story: gue tergila-gila sama lookbook.nu ('cause finally i found someone that are originally stylish. dikit banget tuh yang namanya fashion victims disana.) and when i know that it's an invite only membership, gue berusaha mencari invite code dimana-mana and ta-dah! i got one (tapi ternyata kodenya udah expired), so i tried for the 2nd time and (again) ta-dah!! i got another code and i decide to try that and voila! it's working! i can't believe it's really working and now i'm a member of lookbook.nu!!! i haven't post any looks yet 'till today, i'm planning to work with my cousin, dea together (i'm the model who wear the clothes and she take my pictures since i found that she's really into taking pictures, so yeah..)
i'm hyper rite now and i probably will do some worth-it-to-do things tommorrow :]

ahoy, byebye for now

Chicken Pox

2009-04-03T09:07:00.000-07:00

mhmm.. i caught chicken pox lately. i hate it. hate it hate it hate it.

first, it's came with the fever, all those headaches, sour throat, and everything. it drove me c r a z y. well, now the fever's gone, but the chicken pox is still there -__- i even had put those cream thingy to heal it, i know it's getting better, but it takes so long. i mean i gotta put those cream for like a thousand times! arrrr..
and because of that i gotta skip school (and that time it was a week of test) and i just got back to school today, Friday April 3 '09. when i arrived at school my friends(those who never had chicken pox before)was so scared and they make me scared too. i don't wanna spread this virus to my friends!

oh! and fyi, this is my SECOND chicken pox. i can't believe this is happening, i thought we can only got chicken pox once in a life time!

that's NOT the only thing i missed. i missed Didis' sweet 17th birthday party toooo!! i was hoping so much that i can attend it, because i really wanna see ebess wearing dress and make ups! (i never see her wearing dress, and now [so far] i can only see that from facebook -_-)

How did i get the ill? i guess it's from my brother. He got his 1st chicken pox and maybe the virus come when i'm in a bad shape? i don't know.
AND NOW, what i wished for is... this chicken pox won't leave a stain. it's all over my chest, belly, back, face, even though it's not as much as you think, i think it's because of this is my 2nd time?

okay, that's all. enough saying. bye bye cluckety cluck cluck :]

FRED

2009-03-28T01:14:00.000-07:00

yeah, so.. i was in love with this funny silly guy i found in youtube named FRED:

W H A T ? D:

2009-03-19T09:29:00.000-07:00

[in Indonesian]

jadi.. begini ceritanya:
Kemaren, March 18, 2009. Gue lagi smangat banget blajar fisika, tapi ngerjainnya di laptop nyokap. saking semangatnya, gue ngerjain sampe jam stengah 2 pagi, sampe kepala gue udah pusing kaya ditusuk-tusuk (apa sih, lebay). Udah lumayan tuh gue ngerjain Latihan Bab 9, walaupun belom slese, tapi at least usaha gue lumayan dong?

Hingga tiba pada hari ini.. *jeng jeng* laptopnya ditinggal nyokap di kantor gara-gara berat. Gue shock parah; masalahnya tadi gue sempet denger kabar-kabar udara kalo besok Latihan Bab 8 & 9 mesti dikumpulin. Tadinya gue udah santai, gara-gara gue udah ngerjain lumayan, dan sisanya yang ga ngerti, gue mau ngeliat punya Adji, tapi ternyata semua berjalan tidak seperti yang gue prediksikan -_-
Menangislah gue (okeh, gue tau ini agak over) merenungi kerja keras gue kemarin. Berarti gue harus ngulang dong? Tapi akhirnya gue berusaha melupakannya dengan main internet. yay. pastinya gue bakal usaha ngerjain itu tugas sekuat gue (secara soalnya melimpah ruah. dikasih soal fisika beberapa aja udah puyeng setengah mati. apalagi soal 2 bab??)

Anyway, tadi gue speaking test di TBI. Ada bagian dimana kita disuruh ngejelasin tentang gambar yang ada. Gue dapet gambar guru lagi ngajar murid praktek kimia gitu, dan yaudah gue menjelaskan seadanya dong. dan BAM! tiba-tiba Nandita menjelaskan gambar yang dia dapet dengan sangat amat amat detil. sampe warna rambut orang yg ada di dalem gambar juga disebutin. I was like, "ha? so? does all what i said all right?" grr.. just wait sampe hasilnya datang -_-

Bye, gotta go do the homeworks :|

"The Plan"

2009-03-19T04:49:00.000-07:00

So i planned something. I've told Ebeth, Raras, and Lady about it. To be honest, I'm scared to tell Ully about it, that's why she doesn't know anything about it yet :P It's for this Friday (which is TOMORROW). And think how worry i am about it.
I wish too much for this. Wait. I don't even know what should i wished for. how i want it to be. so.. maybe i just wish it all will go well and ends with happiness?

This plan is about "si batu" of course. The aim for this plan is to know if batu still like me or not, and i really wanna know what would he feel when he knows that i like him too. No, i won't tell how the plan works. Why? Because Ully will probably read this posting and i'm not ready to get how Ully would react yet -_-"

i'm scared i'm scared i'm scared. i'm worried i'm worried i'm worried.
wish me luck okay?

i gotta go. can't talk too much.
bye for now, wait for the next story :]

MOY MOY PALABOY!

2009-02-12T02:31:00.000-08:00

they're so damn funny! go watch the video:

depression and si batu

2009-02-11T09:58:00.000-08:00

oh my, i was totally depressed about all my tests and remedials, i cried, i threw things, and broke things. when i tried to focus my mind on this science i'm studying, this guy, si batu texted me.
Whoa, finally after ignoring, he texted me. but he only texted me 11 times. when i asked him dia lg ngapain dia cuma bilang lg ga ngapa2in; dan gw ga percaya he hit his bed on 9pm! i mean, hello? 9?? is that really your bed time?? for a 12th grader, didn't think so.
so, i've made a possible conclution : he texted me because he had nothing to do and maybe he got those 10 bonus sms. he doesn't wanna waste the bonus, neither idling his time, sooo he texted me. it can be isn't it? what do you think?
mungkin gw negative thinking trus, tapi isn't it the best thing to do to prepare? i mean, gw gamau trlalu ngarep (ya, bs dibilang gt soalnya bntar lg valentine; it could be my 1st 'different' valentine, right? haha) i'm tired of thinking that my life will be so predictable just like a fairytale. i gotta prepare things.

that's all for now, zippery zapzap whoosh!
i'm outta here. lol. XD

warning for me.

2009-02-08T19:30:00.000-08:00

tadi pak fitrah (guru b.k.) masuk kelas dan ngomongin syarat-syarat naik kelas. jeng jeng, nilai ipa smua min. 76, nilai non-ipa min. 73 dan jumlah yg 73 max. 3. dan ga boleh ada C (cukup baik)! ckckck.. gw bingung mesti gimana, gimana nasib gw nanti, udah gitu katanya knaikan kelas itu pengaruh banget buat dapet beasiswa, dll. gimana mau naik kelas kalo fisika gw banyak yang ga ngerti?? aaaargh! udah gitu skalipun semua nilai bagus, kalo fisika gw 75 gw bisa ga naik!! oh noooo! gimana dong? -_-
gw pusing mendadak.
apakah gw bakal berakhir di RSJ??
ergh! harus blajar! harus blajar!

LOMO: Diana F+

2009-02-07T05:50:00.000-08:00

[iya, emang bibirnya lagi agak aneh.
masalah mata melotot, itu supaya mata gue kliatan lebih gede]

yay! kamera baru beybeh! dan itu gue beli pake duit gue sendiri!
ahahahahahaaa *bangga* beli di pompous, FX.

3 film pertama:
1st roll gue gagal total. lebih tepatnya kebakar total -_-, soalnya gue kira yg gue buka itu belom filmnya, soalnya kan di belakangnya ada kaya kertasnya gitu kaan dengan bodohnya gue tarik sampe polllll. bgitu sadar langsung gue gulung lagi, brhubung sayang jadi itu gue paksain buat foto-goto, gapapa lah ga ada hasilnya, yg penting dapet sensasi foto2nya hahahaha. Bgitu filmnya abis, gue salah lagi, jadi rollnya blom bener-bener ke-roll, dan itu langsung aja gue tarik, alhasil film sama kertas yg harusnya buat ngejaga biar filmnya ga kebakar itu malah kepisah. makin hancurlah tuh film dan itu skarang gue simpen baik-baik sebagai 1st film gue yang bisa jadi pelajaran buat anda-anda semua. haha.
2nd roll, gue pake yg vivid color gitu. berhasil, walaupun kebakar dikit gara-gara rollnya kebuka dikit.
3rd roll baru aja abis dan udah terbungkus dengan baik :] Gue harap 2 film itu ada hasilnya, soalnya blom gue cuci. wish me luck!

so, this guy

2009-02-07T05:01:00.000-08:00

(i know you'll think it's a lame story, 'cause it's about a boy. but duh! can you read it first? and maybe give any suggestions?) For those who already know who's the guy, don't let him know okay? okay.
sebut saja: batu.

So, it's started at the Church (yeaa :]), the point is, he asked for my number. I didn't want to give it, but then his friend just asked me for my number (and i gave it) and i thought she saved the number in batu's cell phone. He asked me to took a picture of him and his friends before, 'cause i was bringing my LOMO camera, the DIANA. I;m kinda confused, he never talked to me before and he was just ask it like that.
The next day, (at Church too) my friend and I just bought batagor and ate it at Church, after marguru. We were just talking and i took some pictures. All of the sudden, someone manggil gue (gue rasa itu si batu) trus dia bilang "Yohana, ke sini bentar deh" and i was like, "hah? hah?". I was afraid, so i ignored him and keep talking with my friend. Then, someone manggil gue lagi, "Yoh, fotoin kita dong!" and i ignored him again, whoever he is. After that, minutes later ada yg manggil lagi. "Yohana, boleh minta fotoin bareng ga?" i said no and then ignored him -_- i didn't know what to do. Then i just noticed that batu just gone home. My friend and I went home abis makan batagor.
He was all over my mind, honestly, I never ngadepin hal kaya gini sbelomnya. Honestly, gue nungguin dia sms ato apa kek, emang kesannya ngarep banget, tapi masalahnya adalah gue penasaran. Sampe minggu depannya, ktemu lagi, nothing happened and today he doesn't even talked to me -_- i was totally IGNORED.
Gue bingung ya, itu orang sebenernya maunya apa sih? apa cuma mau manfaatin gue buat jadi fotografer dia & temen-temennya? hhh... jangan sampe deh.

what should i do? dia cuma iseng aja kali ya? aneh banget. -__________-"